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I didn't get to breastfeed my oldset, because he was in the NICU and then refused it. I felt horrendously guilty and everyone told me I was doing him a horrible disservice by not breastfeeding him. I think it really contributed to my post-partum depression, along with his multiple surgeries.With my second, I felt guilty about feeding him and NOT his big brother, so I didn't try too hard. I hated breastfeeding and started supplementing pretty fast when my supply was not up to the task. He self-weaned at 3 months.The third, it was completely different. I was able to actually enjoy it! It was hard and tiring and painful in the beginning, but it worked. Except I still didn't have enough milk (yes, I know most women think this, but I really didn't, he was starving and nothing I did increased the milk), so we ended up supplementing a bit. He was breastfed until 6 months, which worked just fine for both of us.I'm glad you're getting this experience with James, but even happier that we live in a time when we have alternatives if breastfeeding really doesn't work.
